The Secret

Alamak, there is a secret that I don't want you all to know....

And that will be :: I have a little cutie boyfriends, but I didn't have the courage to let my family know that .. :(

He is the best guy I swear, mum, aunt, grandma ... can you all just support my decision ???

I didn't beg you all to do anything before by my own mouth I mean /.\

I just want to have a little more space for he and me .... this is not difficult ..

Why don't you all just like others people family ??? 

Accept and support any decision your child made ?? I just want a peace and harmony family ......

Huiyorrrrr .... I almost whole passage are scolding you all ...

Shit ... I doesn't mean that , sorry my dear family

I did't mean that he is important than you all, just I really love him, can't leave him

So, whatever you all say, I also will answer :: I Love Him ! I don't want to leave him even one second !

Dear, you always accompany me when I need you, and also teach me to study and so on ....

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Mummy moody today, no one dare to talk to her, even me

But I don't know why she is so emotional ... 

I can't catch her thinking, even little bit also ....

I hope that she told me everything about her and I told her everything about me ....

But I think this is impossible ....

I HATE being a liar .... it's hard to be a liar ... :(

Sorry my dear family .... :(

Heavy rain :)

Rain heavily this few days .... 

Unhappy also .... too much things happen during this week ...

Not really like this feeling ...

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Do you know that the things you do make me feel annoying ??

This is none of your business ... why don't you just keep your bloody mouth SHUT ??!!

I don't want to do till like this ... 

Whatever you do I still treat you as my family ....

But why you always bother others people's things ???

Care about yourself lar ..... little baby also want to come out already ... why can't you learn about SHUT UP ???

Why you always want whole world's people know all the things about me ??!!

I am your niece not your prisoner !!!!!!!!

You happy now ??? make everyone of us hate you just like hate shit ???? 

Don't do this lar .... please lar ... care about your little baby lar 

Still want me to take care of your baby .... SHUT UP lar ....

The day you learn to shut up , the day I help you to take care your child !

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My mum also didn't bother me ..... so you DO NOT HAVE the qualification to bother me all the things !!!!

Alright now ! Grandma also know this thing already ... you satisfied ??? Do you ???

Build your own happiness on others people sadness ! BULL SHIT you !

Every status on Facebook I am mentioning you .... I just don't want to say it out ...

You though you are adult then I must listen to you arh ?? Please lar ... how old are you ???

Baby also got already, still doing such childish things !!!

This is not the first time already, behave yourself !!

I didn't scold you doesn't mean that I scare you ! This call RESPECT !

Where is your respect to me ??? Can you show me a little ?? A little bit ??

OOOPssssssss !!!! YOU CAN'T !!

Because you always care about your own feeling but not others ! 

The last thing I want to say to you is :: I HATE YOU !!! BITCH !!! 

The day I stay at home ..

Ooopsss, I forgot to set my alarm so that today I accidentally forget to wake up xD

Mum don't even know I did not go school ... she don't know /.\

Damn Miss my dear, I make him to miss me too xD 

But I know he worried about me larh ....

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Have a little bit quarrel today with him ... maybe all my fault lar

I don't know how to show the considerate to him, make him feel I am annoying .. :)

I Love Him soooo much ...

He treat me just like his little princess :D

All my fault larh ... why am I so inconsiderate ???

I have to change :D Be a Better Me ... <3

Of course he also forgive me ... :)

The thing I do to him, I will change 

I Love You dear <3

Thanks for always by my side when I need you ...

The day your friends overnight at your house :)

Oooopsssss , Little bit Unhappy again ...

This is not suppose to happen ... it's impossible, but it happened ...

Really don't like this feeling larh .... SHYT !!!!

Is okay for me if he go out with his friends ... but why don't he reply my message ???

Am I ..... let him feel annoying ??? I don't know ... :(

It's BAD !! Seriously , I don't like it ...

I forget one thing ... he is the driver /.\

So that can't reply message ....

Is okay , it will over SOON :D

Be A Better Me !!!! :D

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Arggggg !!!!!!!!!! Ther is a cockroach inside my room !!!!

I can't handle it !!!! It's FLY !!! IT'S FLYYYY !!!!!

I NEVER SEE A COCKROACH FLY !!!!

Feel disgusting on it !!! It fly to me !!!!

I have done with it !

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At the same time, mum say that I lie to her again ...

The truth is :: I didn't lie to her, it's hurt .. this word came out from her mouth ... :(

Of course he don't know .... Juz don't know want to tell him or not

He is having fun with his friends, so the answer is :: I will tell him, but not today :)

Mum ask me :: " I do not know why you like to lie to me, is that become your habit ? or hobby ?? Huh ??

I didn't answer her much, but I want to tell her everything about me ...

Include I have boyfriend :) He is good, I Love Him damn Much :D

Mum, I just want to tell you:: I am not like to lie to you, I just don't know how to face you if I told u all about this

I scare everything ,

I scare you scold me,

I scare you sad ,

I scare you dissapointed,

I scare you don't love me just like last time,

I scare you cry again in front of me ........

I cry recently, you wouldn't know ... even he don't know as well ...

Of course , I am coward .... I not dare to tell you :')

I AM COWARD !!!!

I am useless ....

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Am I wrong ??

I shouldn't lie to her from the first day I decide to lie to her ...

It's right, if got once, you want another once ........... and this is HUMAN ~

Of course, I use a new lie to cover previous lie, and this continue already 4 years....

Our relationship become stranger, stranger and sranger ........... :(

Maybe it's all my fault ...

I am just want to write out what I am thinking ....

It's nothing .....

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Hey boy, I Miss You seriously tonight ....

You hanging out with your friends , always be careful ya :)

The thing I want to tell you is I really Emo whole day, it's real .... :)

Is okay , I am okay :D

Smile always , I don't want you o worried about me

Just let me worried about you, I not bear to see you headache :D

Muackzzzzzz :-*
Have a kiss before go back :D

Hubby hug hug :)

I Love You Boy ...

Aiyorrrrrrrr , You are the cutest people in my world  :)

老妈 ， 我已经 16 岁了 ，我会照顾自己

说真的，我还真的很不喜欢跟你一起生活

住在一起 ， 很累，很不开心

每天都好像要阿谀奉承跟你

我是你女儿 ， 不是你工人

我们和和气气不好吗 ？

我不喜欢这样的生活

我恨 ！！

为么我会有一个妈妈整天都在埋怨，喝酒？

当初如果嫌我难照顾，那就不要生我吖

。。 好了 ，现在生了我，还要嫌东嫌西，我超讨厌好不好

真的很想跟你坦白说我的一切

可是我知道你会很生气，所以我什么事情都会告诉我朋友

可能他们和我同岁，知道我的心情

真的很没心情 :(